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We're the best of friends,
And we share our secrets.
He knows everything that is on my mind..
But lately somethings changed,
As I lie awake in my bed.
A voice here inside my head;
Softly says..
Why don't you kiss him?
Why don't you tell him?
Why don't you let him see,
The feelings that you hide?
Cuz he'll never know..
If you never show,
The way u feel inside..
Just so you know,
people have been here before you!
Thanks for coming, nee ways, whatever. I hope you enjoy your time here, well, everyone does. And unless you're abnormal(which is highly unlikely), you should enjoy yourself too(:
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I am Audrey. I have a much much longer name but I'll leave it as it is for the sake of internet safety measures. After all, who wants someone to stalk
you on the net, huh? I like to believe that I'm a successful person in life, but that'd be called lying, won't it? But I'm not that bad, honestly. I'm from english drama,
but I debate too. Good lord, its not for the sake of my CCA points, but I really enjoy verbal fights and acting dramatic, no? Oh well, unless you're me, you'd prolly
not understand. Nan Hua High School's the name(yeah, yeah, you can stalk me now.) of my school, but I do hope that it won't be permanently. Because, I'm being plain
truthful here when I say that it just does not suit me.
I'd like to believe that I live a purpose-driven life and I very much like the nuggets macdonald's has to offer. Umm, yummy. My favorite color usually changes every three months
or so it'd be incredibly pointless if I were to mention my current color of choice. They usually tend to shift to certain shades of pink, red and black. :) I find
cam-whoring insanely embarrassing but that hasn't stopped me yet.
That's about it. True, my opinion about cam-whoring isn't much of a clincher but hey, no one actually reads this part.
I am a certified bubble burster to be; emotionally or literally, you choose it.
wishlist
■Xbox 360 ■ TO LEAVE NANHUA. AHAHAH :X ■ A better phone. ■ World peace ■ Idiots to be removed off the face of the world. ■CCA JACKETS! ■Pretty camera! ■Get PSP upgraded ■ Lots and lots of dark chocolate. ■ To go to China!(Omg i'm pathetic.) ■My own laptop ■My own macbook ■ My friends to live happily ever after :)) HAHAH. ■ Money; the more the better :) ■ GOOD GRADES ■Pass my fencing exam..? ■ Stop anti-socialing during drama ): ■ Rock band ■Guitar Heroes ■ Global Warming ends. ■ Find my guitar hero III: legends of rock disk for 360. I lost it! T.T ■ Bees to be abolished. ■ Sexism, racism, classism, whatever -ism to be abolished. ■ My phobia of rollercoasters, heights and bees to begone too. ■ Pass my ice-skating exams? ■ PS3! ■ GTA: Chinatown on DS? ■ More xbox360/wii/xbox/psp/nds games (: ■ to become a fully-fledged vegetarian ■ be able to attend drama outing(they alw plan it on days i can't go):( ■ DEBATE OUTING. By the end of this year. If i have to plan it out myself, I will.
I think I can say that I'm an easily satisfied person.
list of the hots and not ;D. okay, was bored..
LUCAS GRABEEL EDWARD TAY♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥!
Thomas Andrew Felton.♥♥♥
Alex Pettyfer.♥♥♥
Liam Aiken.♥♥♥
Raynen Tay, OMG!♥♥♥♥♥♥ ahem, ahem, ahem!♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥(this is only one person :D)
i have lovely taste.
If I lie here, would you lie with me, and just forget the world?
824908423676446512 date: Monday, 30 November 2009 time: 03:19 comments: 0
Today I'm in an epic sad mood, for reasons unbeknown to the world. To this evil, meat-eating world, but the vegetarian topic is out. Sometimes it just feels to me like no one cares, and then again, maybe its true that no one cares. But then, although some people may really hate me, I look at my friends, I look at my parents, and I think, is that possible? no, I didn't think so. But when I'm all alone, without anyone IMing/SMSing/Calling me, I feel a horrible sense of loneliness. Sometimes, when I talk to people, I can even feel fake. Horribly, terribly fake. Like, it's not me, really. I just don't seem to be the person, that everyone once knew. It's a horrible terrible feeling, and when you're alone, its even worse. The darkness simply just takes you along for the ride, screws you up, and throws you out into nothingness.
Is it just fair, that people out there are somehow, so fake, yet they can be happy? They can somehow, master that happy facade such that its like they're lying to themselves, but they aren't? Contradictions. I know. Is it possible, for me to lie to myself too? But this fakeness, this facade is deafeningly horrible, and detrimental to my sanity. I decided not to lie anymore, its time to be, just me. I hope that I won't be sad anymore, for this matter. In fact, I'm going to do something that will be good, for me. AKA, my homework. Let me go onto a happier note, yes?
The homeworks that I'm left with :
x4 chinese book reviews. shit.
x1 shuibi. time to tackle this later.
history learning log chapter 1 and 2. maybe later(?)
that doesn't look like much, but the book reviews are gonna be helluva of a Christmas present, grazie, grazie. :I Honestly, chinese is not my thing. But, I think, I might actually try to believe in myself and put in more effort for chinese. Although I know that its actually impossible for me to like the subject, or language, for the matter. But, I do have to improve, if I want to get anywhere in the future. I must stop this slackdom, I must stop this going-out thing. I go out too often, for anyone(apart from me) to like. Jesus. My mom and dad are fretting, and I'm panicking inside too. I'm not working hard enough, I'm not the one that they once were proud of anymore.
Apart from that, I guess I might need to go into detail for the previous days. My last post is totally outdated and overated, Charmian's and My outing with the St. A's dudes. LOL. I really, really, have to update. But I can't remember too far back, so here's the few things I've got.
-Friday-
Went out with Darshini and Mayning to J8 to watch a movie/have lunch/take neoprints/walk about. I guess it was fun, Darshini's first real major outing! :) I'm happy for her, hahah. And I think she's real nice too :D. Anyway, hahah, Jesus, it was fun, the movie(A Christmas Carol) was great, I guess..
-Saturday-
Shitty tuition. After tuition, went to watch NEWMOON. OMG, this is when I epic started heavily crushing on Robert Pattinson. Admittedly, he doesn't look good, but, WTH? I think he's damnn epic SEXY. Yes, yes, super uber sexy. You can call me crazy now. Squeals.
-Sunday(Yesterday)-
Mayning's house, with me, Cady and Xueqin. We played games. thats about it.
-Today-
The only thing I'm really going into detail about. Me and Thurston went back to Nanhua cuz last week's production of the "Communicating with Patients and Visitors; A Guide Prepared Especially for Jamiyah Nursing Home" was epic screwed and staticky, so we had to remake one. Omg, today was epic (Y). I think me and Thurston did fabulously. Anyway, he was real nice to pei me to have lunch in the canteen after that, we met Carissa and we talked a bit. Then she disappeared into non-living, and me and Thurston were talking as hell again. Hahah, he's a real nice guy, I guess. He's almost as good as my best friend, can get. Ahem, Edward. :D Yes, Edward, I love you. You're the bestest of all friends, a girl like me can ever want and get. I can't count the number of things you did for me, already. I just wanted to tell you that, I know that you know that I know that you know that I will absolutely, positively, irrevocably miss you when you're gone.
And no, you must come back to visit me, you little bastard :D. Thank you so much. So very much, thanks to you, I, on a whole, didn't feel very lonely. I'll need someone to replace you, your-always-being-there-ness is not comparable to anyone, however, I'd just like you to know. :D. Anyway, back to today. So yeah, I took bus home myself. The end. What a boring, usual day.
i got your emails, you just don't get females, now do you?
5722185099437054542 date: Tuesday, 24 November 2009 time: 06:08 comments: 0
LOL. today was FUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN. Omg, I'mma like, totally retardedly hyped up for no effing reason. But I kinda thought today was "fun". And so, yours truly's gonna go in detail now. Okay, met Charmian at Woodlands mrt, totally 30 minutes late :D. Met Charmian, then took Mrt. LOL. Did i mention that I took MRT to clementi instead of woodlands, by accident? Shock, Horrors, Disasters. The Curse Of Nanhua High :O. Anyway, yeapps. Okay, took MRT to Kovan, to meet Leonard there. On the MRT, we camwhored a little bit using the cool art of physics; Reflection! :D :D :D.
YAY. Extra guy there. sorry uhs.
yes this picture is epic nice :D.
quite good too luhs :D
Okay, when we reached Kovan, I called Leonard and we met him at the MRT station. Charmian then gave me a case of seriously-horrible-unstoppable laughing fits, such that Leonard was totally embarrassed to be seen out with us. LOL. We walked around, trying to find a vegetarian stall which suits yours truly's vegetarian apetite. There was NOTHING. Apart from some super disgusting kopitiam that Leonard wanted to eat at.
(Note: guys are cheapskates D:)
Okay, anyway, we found McDonald's. Shitty, LOL. All MEAT. Bloody hellz. Then Leonard asked the counter a stupid question;
"DO YOU HAVE VEGEBURGERZ?"
LOL. Obviously, the counter went boomz.
"Sorry, no, how about a lovely Fillet O Fish?"
Uhuuuuuuuum. FISH is meat, ewz. Anyway, I bought that thingy, and gave the fish to Leonard. So practically, my lunch was, the burger's bun, the cheese and french fries. Lovely, I'm sure. Charmian had a more fulfilling, yet evil meaty lunch. Gross. And she kept making me laugh like shit over the burger. For the lamest reasons ever, and Leonard was totally humiliated. Sorry uhs! Hahah, and his friends arrived like 30 minutes later. 5 other guys, and with leonard = 6 guys. Then me and Charmian were feeling damn extra, so we went to the toilet, and met Leonard outside on his way to the gentz. LOL. Then we went back and camwhored outside McDonalds, cuz we were shy people to talk to the dudez.
seeeee cute Charmian :D.
MEEEEEE :D LOL.
Anyway, went inside when Leonard came out and told us about him forgetting his socks for bowling(so did I, luckily Charmian brought an extra pair for me, LOVE.) LOL, I forgot to mention that Charmian and my's main reason for staying outside was to see the SUPER MACHO AND HOT basketballers at the opposite side of the road. We were waving at them, LOL. But they didn't see la dey. Then Leonard kept insulting the fairer gender by saying,
"Girls are weird peoplez."
Right, LOL. Just because they're from St. Andrew's, totally doesn't give them a right to insult us. HMFF. Alright, we went to the bowling place. EPIC FAILZ. I kept screwing up, but I got a couple of strikes, and a lot of spares I think :X. But them guys were pro, especially the ones that weren't playing against us. Me and Charmian were against Leonard and Yanting(?). Sorry, I didn't really get his name. That Yanting guy kept hitting one pin on purpose, LOL. Charmian and me got epic lots of gutters at the first round. And we were giggling and talking lots of shit. I know Charmian much much much better now ;D. Hahaha, its cool going out with her, LOL. Anyway, wth, I'm going to murder her for taking my bowling pictures. Second round was okay, LOL, Charmian won cuz we weren't exactly concentrating. Heeh, Charmian, I'mma not giving you credit. Third round was epic, I got a couple of strikes and lots of spares. Then at the end, wth, the guys were like shouting when I was gonna hit again, "hit gutter, hit gutter, hit gutter." Funny huhs. I'mma wanna kick some balls. LOL. Stupid St.Andrewsians. >:P
cool drama jacket :O. uncool and unglam me. Stupid mianbao.
walaooooooooooooooooooooooooo. my socks pull until so high and nerdy. LOL. this shot was taken right before I hit a gutter. LOL. K, nevermind.(OMG I SEE MY LEG MUSCLES :D)
Charmian Kua, I'mma gonna kill you. Anyway, we also took some shots of the guys, but we can't see their faces. So it's officially proclaimed that Charmian is a failure at photography. See the below pictures :D. And judge for yourself.
See, the yellow shirt dude's Leonard. Unglam butt-shot! :D
LOL. We all have the same cool shoes. LOL.
Anyway, bowled 3 times, holy epic mama, it costed us $8.10 each. But the other group was worse, cuz they played 4 times. $2.70x4 = $10.80 each. Wow, am I glad we didn't play that much. Then that Hongjun guy(Charmian's friend, coincidentally) was complaining like siao. Oh, yeah, me and Charmian went to the toilet to camwhore. But only one nice picture, uhhs.
Okay, not really that clear, but its obviously the toilet :D.
Went out there, the guys were complaining like shit about how expensive it was(heyyyyy, proves my cheapskate point.) And they're like, SO CHILDISH, UGH. Its so prude, of me to say so, but yes. They are. They were talking about gang-banging the dude behind the counter,
(another note: st. andrew guys are DAMN innocent. I think they don't even know what gang-bang means, they simply think it means like a whole gang beating up some guy.)
and about dipping the money in urine before giving it to that guy(?!) Honestly, we can do better, so much better darlings. So love, I suggest that you stop being so immature, yes, love? ((;. Me and Charmian were like talking about how "high-class" we were, and how childish they were. LOL. After bowling, we took MRT to Leonard's house. Leonard ate half of my cheese balls, cuz we couldn't finish it. Epic waste, he took the whole packet and poured it down his throat. Anyway, on the MRT, we were trying to segregate ourselves from the childish little boys next door. LOL. (most of which happens to be taller than me? LOL) When we reached Serangoon, the guys totally epic chionged away from us. We heck cared them, thats so us :D. Me and Charmian were singing(okay, mouthing) song lyrics, and when we caught up with them, Leonard was trying to unsuccessfully gaily(oh yeah, they have a problem with the word, "gay" too.) imitate us. We don't care, right? Ugh. We wanted to sing "fuck you" to him, but I couldn't find the song, so we had to make do with, "If You Seek Amy". LOL.
"Love me hate me, say what you want about me, but all of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek amy."
LOL, Charmian was like saying, we shouldn't SING THIS in front of THEM. :X So mean luhs, actually they weren't that bad. Leonard + Yanting = quite sociable to me, I think? Anyway, reached, and went to Leonard's house(omg epic big TV(?) :O) to get the table tennis stuff plus the football. o.o
Charmian and me = tired. LOL. Guys = not tired. LOL. They started playing soccer, and kept insisting for me and Charmian to play. We were sitting down, emoing, listening to music, and talking lots of cock. We started playing, "Fuck You" like the guys even heard anyway. Plus, I noticed that their playing was much less rougher when compared to the Nanhua guys. Sucks. :P. But they were quite good, I guess. After like 20 minutes of playing, we went to play table tennis at an air conditioned place. Apparently it was booked, but Leonard with his, self-proclaimed shuai face got the 2 ladies upstairs to let us play. Went up, the 6 guys were playing. Me and Charmian were sitting down and making random comments and talking talking talking, which earned us weird looks from the guys, but we honestly didn't want to play. LOL. We were damn random, and bored, so we were talking about everything under the sun, and it was damn fun :D. Let me post some of our conversations. LOL.
Charmian: Let's talk about Apples, Audrey.
Me: Okay. Apples are red.
Charmian: And?
Me: Apples are red, big and juicy.
Leonard(extra): They can be green too.
Me: Oh, right, Granny Smiths.
LOL. We failed. :X. We were talking about the best all-boy school too :D. Obviously, the st. andrews people were complimenting themselves for that. Ahem, NO they are wrong! D: Its HWACHONG K. :D :D :D. And the guys there went like, wtf? When I said Hwachong. They were like,
"Hwachong is a nerd school, ugh."
Then I went,
"NO THERE'RE HOT GUYS THERE OKAY :D."
Then they went,
"EW, they do your homework for you is it."
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL. Damn epic la dey. But its a damn cool idea, hahah. But, its true. Hwachong is a damn epic cool school kay, St. Andrews will never everever beat them D:.
Anyway, we then left to wait for Charmian's super uber nice parents, who agreed to fetch me to Woodlands MRT station. Wheeeeeeeeeeeeee, so nice :D. We camwhored right outside the Lorong Chuan MRT station. Charmian's idea. So now, let me let the pictures speak a thousand words to you, darlings. :)
K, wth, Unglam. LOL. Peoplez like to take such photos of me. Let me let you compare to another picture.
SEEEEEEEEEE. damn. LOL. Anyway, back to me and Charmian's camwhoring.
K see Charmian so cute :P.
GANGBANG. LOL CHARMIAN. HAHAHA.
I had to hold the camera so we had to make do with a triangle. LOL.
YAY I IS LIKE MYSELF HERE ONLY. LOL.
cute charmiannnnnnn :D Alliteration!
Charmian's watch, and my sex bands. Okay, let's call them bangles.
yayz I like this picture too :D. Fionaaaaaaaaa :D
Anyway, I can conclude that we kinda had a fun time yesterday :D. Looking forward for more of such outings, especially with Charmian! Hahah.
6848670875743452231 date: Saturday, 21 November 2009 time: 07:21 comments: 0
What. The. Hell. -_-. I'm either going to drown in my own waves of anger, or scream out in lugubriosity alright. I've had it with you already. You are so damn bloody conceited, everything's either about you, or the people you care for right? I don't bloody want to talk, because, you are uncaring. For me, as far as I know. I don't care, don't give a shit, about people that don't give a shit about me either. Honestly you think I wanna talk to you about the people you like? Fuck off, motherfuckingbitch.
I don't need you. Or her. So just, go away. Stop ruining my goddamned life already. I have my friends you know. I don't need you. So goodbye. For 10 seconds or so, I was actually fooled by your bloody antics. Now I know. Goodbye.
On a lighter note, Audrey has decided to put all his shit, and him, behind me. Therefore no more emo posts up ahead! ((: Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Shit. Zonghan just told me that Joel is going to be in the same class as us next year. WTBLOODYDAMN?!!!!!?!?!!??!?!?! I argue with him everydamn lesson luhs! hahaha. Ohmygod. Mr Gan. Please. I beg you. Throw Joel out. I beg you. I is still begging. Gosh, Mr Gan has got to be crazy. He's putting me and Joel in the same classroom. SCREAMS. Okay, I think i'm being too overexcited about it. Joel is kinda nice, to us, but not to Mr Gan. So I is gonna take this good chance to suck up to Mr Gan. LOL. I is such a bitch sometimes ((;
LOL. I can't say how happy I might be to see newtonapple peoples again. really. everyone there is as nice and sociable as me. Thanks, gosh, I totally know that everyone loves me. I mean, what's there not to love right! Hahah. LOL. Cady's going hyper, cuz 1.China bans Facebook. 2. China bans blogger. 3. China bans youtube. 4. She's going to runescape 24/7 to talk to her beloved bready :D. okay, anyway, today's tuition was funner than usual. we kept spamming letters. we as in me and christalle. talked to jiahui, gloria and shilei a bit too D:. LOL.
Okay, I is now bored. So I shall paste random msn histories. especially the one with zonghan. I went siao over Joel Lim, HOLYCRAP :X.
Messenger Plus! Chat Log
Session Start: Sunday, November 22, 2009
♥Audrey;;:;{proclamation of emancipation; oh dear lord.] (auderay@hotmail.com)
Zong Han (leezh96@hotmail.com)
(5:24 AM) Zong Han:
so we are going to same maths class lols
(5:24 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
huh howz you know
(5:25 AM) Zong Han:
should be if im not wrong
(5:25 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
sunday rights.
(5:25 AM) Zong Han:
yup
(5:25 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
greatz{!}
(5:25 AM) Zong Han:
lols
(5:25 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
LOL
(5:25 AM) Zong Han:
joel in oso lols
(5:25 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
OMG. please not that joel as in the one
(5:25 AM) Zong Han:
unless he change ]lols
(5:25 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
mr gan doesn't like?
(5:25 AM) Zong Han:
yup lols
(5:26 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
btw how you know
(5:26 AM) Zong Han:
k
(5:26 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
NOOOOOOO
(5:26 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
LOL. who else ehs
(5:26 AM) Zong Han:
not vry sure quite some time already lols
(5:26 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
aww man k its starts when uhz
(5:26 AM) Zong Han:
december 13 i think
(5:27 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
LOL. i'm not looking forward to it bahz. D; are youz?
(5:27 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
hahah agreed xD
(5:28 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
k
see you soon luhs.
LOL. I is so damn gay. K now I shall upload my conver with cady.
Session Start: Sunday, November 22, 2009
♥Audrey;;:;{proclamation of emancipation; oh dear lord.] (auderay@hotmail.com)
cady;; merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily, life is but a dream. (cady_tay1996@hotmail.com)
(5:35 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
O.O YOU CAN COME ONLINE? O.O
(5:35 AM) cady;; merrily,:
why not o.o
(5:36 AM)
cady;; merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily, life is but a dream. has changed his/her personal message to "in chongqing now 8D"
(5:36 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
idk maybe cuz you is in china now?
(5:36 AM) cady;; merrily,:
stil can connect to internet what i brought my lappy 8D
(5:36 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
LOL CHEY wowz so pro k
(5:36 AM) cady;; merrily,:
but worst thing = CHINA BLOCKS FB
(5:36 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
yeah i heard YOU CAN'T SURVIVE LE D:
(5:37 AM) cady;; merrily,:
daaaa-mn
(5:37 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
why china so bad we miss out all the hot china dudz
(5:37 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
actually is only block in some parts of china xP
(5:38 AM) cady;; merrily,:
CHINA BLOCKS BLOGGER argh how do i survive
(5:38 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
china no life play runescape LOL
(5:38 AM) cady;; merrily,:
LOL GOOD IDEA
(5:38 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
NOOOOO I WAS KIDDING LOL
(5:38 AM) cady;; merrily,:
wait lemme test if they blocked itl
(5:38 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
hope not
(5:39 AM) cady;; merrily,:
HAHAHHA HAHHAHAHAA YES THEY DIDNT BLOCK! (:
(5:39 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
NOO AHAAAHAHHA
(5:39 AM) cady;; merrily,:
YES YES YES my life isnt over (: china blocked youtube.
(5:40 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
LOL fail
(5:40 AM) cady;; merrily,:
die alr die alr.
(5:40 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
LOL i can't live for 1 day without fb and youtube nozzzz
(5:42 AM)
cady;; merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily, life is but a dream. has changed his/her name to "cady;; zomg, china blocked fb, blogger, youtube. HOW TO SURVIVE."
(5:42 AM) cady;; zomg, chi:
i need fb T^T I NEED BLOGGER I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT BLOGGER GEEZ
(5:42 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
LOL I CAN'T EITHERRRR ITS MY LIFE
(5:43 AM) cady;; zomg, chi:
): me is dying idk what to do
(5:43 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
play runescape
(5:43 AM) cady;; zomg, chi:
i shall rs 24/7 then lol
(5:43 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
LOL WTH
(5:43 AM) cady;; zomg, chi:
great minds think alike.
(5:43 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
THATS STUPID :X noz AH
(5:43 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
i know your hidden intentions ;D you is gnna spam bready LOL
(5:44 AM) cady;; zomg, chi:
LOL NO EH ): THYE BLOCKED YT HOW AM I GONNA TALK TO HIM LOL
(5:44 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
uh runescape chat or msn LOL
(5:45 AM) cady;; zomg, chi:
cant msn 24/7 what damn sian
(5:45 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
why not LOL
(5:46 AM) cady;; zomg, chi:
sian bleah cant sms also. lalala I NEED TO BLOG ARGH figordlfjmgdlhrdh
(5:47 AM)♥Audrey;;:;{proc:
LOL K CHILL btw i is going to steal our msn history
1726190445061758345 date: Thursday, 19 November 2009 time: 23:14 comments: 0
What is goddamned wrong with me? Did you know, did you know, that every single fucking day of the holidays, I cried at least once a day? Did anyone know? No. Cuz. Cuz I didn't want to waste anyone's time by bothering anyone. I tried to be nice to everyone. In fact, I made new friends a long the way. I became close to my old ones. If this was normal, I'd be happy. But its not normal, I only got to know them thanks to them caring for me, although I don't know if I deserve it anymore. I can kid myself and tell myself that you care. When you obviously do not, albeit the fact you don't want to say it. i don't know what I did to deserve all this goddamned shit, but you obviously don't care. Thats all that matters now. It hurts you know, it fucking absolutely hurts. I went crying to so many many many people. these people all showered me with care and love and concern. But no matter how happy I try to be, I can't. I just can''t. If you were to read this, I'm sure that you'll never know that it's about you. I'm so very sure. I can't stop crying. Why? I don't know either. All these people tried to help me. They however, can't find a solution for my damn problem. Its too complicated, they said it. It's damn unfair. Then you'll say, "Life is unfair." Thank you. My life is so fucking unfair, that if you think your life is unfair, get a life. I can't stop crying. I badly badly really want to. But it won't. The tears just keep coming and coming. Do i deserve such? Do i, honestly? I hate this world. Screw it. It's not fair. People can think I'm a bitch, but its true. Screw you, honestly. I hate everything on this planet, especially myself. Its so........ ironic. When things wwere getting good, everything came crushing down again. Fuck you, I don't deserve this. I can't even seek comfort from him anymore. Cuz he was the one, that screwing started this cry fest. Will this ever end? Is there a solution to my problems, honestly? I highly doubt that.
2697021748184662261 date: Wednesday, 18 November 2009 time: 03:08 comments: 0
TODAY WAS FUN. HAHAHAHAHAH. Went back to school to do some english thing. Met Junyuan and Reginald. Aiya, I don't care what everyone says. They're actually very nice people. I owe them big, they actually waited for me. I was late, jesus. Okay, so apparently Reginald DID wait, but Junyuan was forced to wait cuz he was running to find Suresh, and Suresh bujiandiao. Jeez. So he was practically literally forced to wait for me. But anyway, it was a nice change to have friends. I guess. LOL. I mean, ugh, what I am saying?! I have friends, duh, but it was nice to have people waiting for me, y'know? Reginald's so sweet, gosh! Hahah.
Okay, we went up to the class to wait for Mr Chew. Jesus, he's leaving like next year, and I barely got to meet him. He seemed super uber nice though. Sigh. I could get to know and love more teachers, you know. Apparently, Mr Peter Tan's going to take over for him next year. Geez. And I got to meet Mr Tan tomorrow. I hope he's nice. Yay, I've got like Thurston and Jowell tomorrow, so no worries. However, I like Reginald over Thurston. LOL. I'm biased. I don't care. Anyway, back to the English committee thingamajig. Reginald went totally emo kia on me, but I didn't give up, so I started talking like siao to him and Junyuan. Apparently. We met some other dudes, 101, 104, 107(Reginald!). Yay. And 109 luh, me and Junyuan.
Okay, anyway, we were supposed to do Oral reading for both english and chinese(?). SO SCREWED. HAHAHAHAH. Everyone was laughing at my chinese luh. Then some dude from 101 apparently has as shitty chinese as me. Then Mr Chew pardoned him, wth. After he totally like, humiliated me. OMGGGGGG T.T. But the people there were damn cheerful. the 101 guy said that his chinese was worser than mine :D. Idk if its true, makes me feel better anyway. Thanks :D. WTH junyuan and reginald were laughing like siao, and it wasn't even funny luh. But admittedly, Reginald's chinese is real good :O.
I'm jealoussssssssss D: Reginald; I don't like you. Hahahahahah ;D.
Okay, then after that, I walked out of school with them. Then we went home. Reginald kept jabbing Junyuan's waist. LOL. He's trying to cheat on his girlf with Junyuan, omgosh! :O Then Reginald kept wrestling my wallet from me tooz. He stole my ez-link card. Goshhhh. They had a whirl of a time looking at my SUPER CUTE P6 PIC :D :D. yeah, so cute right! hahahah. Anyway, came home, smsed peoplez a bit. Looked at random facebook profiles. Laughed at cute pictures of someone :D :D :D. Then I IMed that someone. He got damn fucked. Kept insisting he wasn't cute. HAHAHAHA WHICH OF COURSE MADE HIM CUTERRRRRRR. Omg, i'm going to screamz :X :X SO CUTE LEH. Damn spastically cute. I keep reading the MSN history, cuz he's damn funny. :X
My favourite is still: TTownage says: *audrey is the best person in the world.
OMG SO SWEET I'M GOING TO START CRYING AGAIN. No, just joking. If I liked him, it would be called INCEST. You can't like someone from your own family. JESUS. THIS IS GROSSING ME OUT. But he's so cute. I swear, if he wasn't from my family, I's 101% have a crush on him. :X
8187125101077808892 date: Sunday, 15 November 2009 time: 04:57 comments: 0
HAHAHAHAH. now i have the mood to post everything already. so you must get ready for prolly, a pretty long post.
-Friday-
LOL. Wentz to watch movie with myself, Jowell, Regine + seniorz. I don't remember their names. Only hanguang. LOL. Booked tickets for 2012 cuz my mom's paranoid. Then i went early to meet Jowell there with Regine. Pretttttttttttttty awkward at first. Then I got them to open up and talk like siao :D. HAHAHAH. then the seniorz came super uber late, like i was saying, "WE'RE GOING IN IN 5 MINUTES IF THEY DON'T REACH." then they arrived. LOL. coincidentalz. okay. we went in. then we sat. HAHAHAHHAH I PURPOSELY MADE REGINE SIT WITH HANGUANG. then later change seat. wtf. then we were likez passing around all the unhealthy tidbits and fattening thingyz. Horrible. I gained 1kg. For sure. After that i got freez money from them HAHAHAH. book ticketz mehz. then we went for dinner. DAMN CHEAPSKATE; $5 also cantz. Jeez. Ate some super disgusting thing which resulted in me vomitting. Thankfully, lovely regine let me drink her water :D :D OMG SHE'S JUST DAMN EPIC NICE LUH. Hahahah. I missed out a lot of funny parts LOL. :X Like me and regine runningz away. Hahahhahahahahah. If regine is reading this now: SHH DON'T TELL THEM K HAHAHAH ;D. And I also purposely left Regine sitting at the tablez with hanguang. HAHAHAHA. she told me about it in the bus on the way home, and i was laughing like hell hahahahahah ;D. Overall: Awkward, but, "fun". eh.
-Saturday(yesterday)-
boring; stupid tuition. LOL. i do not wish to go into detail.
-Sunday(today)-
yesssssssssssssss! :D this one was fun fun fun :D. Went to vivocity with mayning and Cady. :D. Watched My Sister's Keeper. Quite nicez, but 2012 was nicer(middle fingerz! :D). Its like, a tear-jerker I guess. if you like movies that is like super touching, then this is the movie for youz. Me and cady were totally squealing over Jesse Fitzgerald's actor. HOT DUDEZ :D. A rash of vivid moles/freckles, but otherwise, cute cute cute :D. ACTED BY EVAN ELLINGSON :D :D squeals!
UGHHHHHHHH ;D ;D. I thought he reminded me of Jesse McCartney at first.
DO YOU SEE THE RESEMBLANCE? :D :D :D ;D ;D ;D.
so hotz right. Omg. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah (Y)(Y)(Y)! Okay, anyway, after the movie, we went to try random clothes in random shops. LOL FAIL. HAHAHAHAHAHAHH. mayning tried on all those prom dresses thingyz. Cady and me tried on random clothes. I was trying to dress like a nerdz. Successfully failed. LOL. I look more like a prep.
In fact, I can honestly say that I think I'mma prep.
But whatever. Then we went up to the water park at vivo's rooftop, cuz Cady was insisting there was BIG BALLS there. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH. Successfully failed taking pictures with big ballz. Too big already. LOL. It sounds wrong. we sat on the itchy grass and camwhored over 100 pictures. I keep making epic gay faces with my totally unphotogenic-ity. LOL. okay. got to go. byez.
Yeah, you get the idea, honey. I don't want to go into measure. Because.. I don't feel up to it. Anyway, I realized my last post was the day before Taiwan. Totally a fortnight ago or two. However my blog is still kinda alive, what a relief. Thank the beloved Cbox. Anyway. Yes. Sigh. I still miss ___ ________ the great.
OMGGGGGGGGGGG. Why why why won't the world revolve around me? I understand every single effing Fall Out Boy song, because every single song seems to tell me lots of things. It's practically my life, omg. So this post, was dedicated to Fall Out Boy and fans alike; albeit the Snow Patrol title. Sigh. Why does my life suck. Why. Sometimes I really hate myself. Sometimes, I really love myself. Now, I pity myself. And I hate the world. Waldorfworldwide -_____-(!) And anyway, apparently, Jasmine and Cordillia really want to ignore me for the rest of my life. Because I didn't go yesterday. I don't care;
FALL OUT BOY .
Alpha Dog - The leader or authority in something. Mainly, this song is about Patrick himself, who is the Alpha Dog, of FOB. And I think, he fought with another band member over some girl. "you're not the first, or the last, but you're possibly the prettiest." a chance at sweet talk. Prolly. My life sucks like that, cuz.. I don't get what I want. Ironically.
Catch Me If You Can/Procalamation Of Emancipation - I don't freaking get my freaking emancipation. And I used to take Ambien. {I can't go to sleep without Ambien.} I want to proclaim myself emancipated. D: sigh.
Switchblades And Infidelity - {Walking out on the show is walking out on you And walking out on you's still the best thing that I ever did. } Never gonna happen, though I tried many many times.
Pretty In Punk - {I was terrified and would you mind if I sat next to you and watched you smile? So many kids but I only see you.} Hahah. That day. Wow. We spent practically the whole time talking/arguing. omg. That was the best day of my life. Although a super short time span. It was... almost 2 hours. Seemed like 5 minutes to me. I still miss you, though I must be nothing. But, let me say this. On that day, I thought... I honestly thought.. That we might have became.. Something. :/ I thought... You were.. another part of me. Seems like I thought wrong. Also, {I'm not the way you think I am, no.}
America's Suitehearts - {you could have knocked me out with a feather, i know you heard this all before but we're just hell's dreamers.}Isn't it just so obvious? Many people must like you, don't they? But, somehow, you struck me as the opposite in personality of the guy I actually thought I LOVED. you were, albeit your exterior, obviously a quieter one. obviously a shyer one. Why did I like you so?{why, why, why won't the world revolve around me? in my dreams, trees, grow all over the streets.}Yeah, my world sucks.{you can bow and pretend that you don't, don't know you're a legend. time and time and time, has a toll anyone else yeah, let my love lose again.}You're a legend, really. In my heart, and always will be. Until the day I die. Time and time and time will take many a toll on me :(.
Lullabye - Sweet, slow song. Sweet. {It doesn't matter how you feel. Life is just, a ferris wheel. It's always up and down don't make a sound..} They, simply don't care. I apologized. One stupid fucking day. And wow, you can think that I'm such a carefree happy person, can you? I'm fucking upset you fucking bitches. I apologized. I fucking wanted to go. Is it my fucking fault that I was busy?!
I Don't Care - Prolly the second newest to Alpha dog. {I don't care what you think as long as its about me, the best of us can find happiness in misery.} Like he ever would. I'm not the best, but I'm trying to be her. I'm going to find my happiness in misery. {these, friends, they don't love you. they just love your hotel suites now.} you're too rich, darling. i'm sure that... many befriended you because. somehow, i just know it. it seems like, i knew you before really. a long, long, time ago.
What A Catch, Donnie - beautiful, remixed ending. beautiful truthful lyrics. {I got troubled thoughts, and the self esteem to match, what a catch.} Yeah, so true. Thanks to nanhua. -.- {and all i can think of, is the way, i'm the one who charmed, the one who gave up on you.} I still damn like you. {they say the captain, goes down with the ship. so if the world, gives; will god go down with it?} will it?
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